Friday, February 17, 2017

5 things Friday and my first post op appt

Happy Friday! I hope you guys had a great week!

Here's a few things from mine:

1. Look at this baby! This is Hank. He is my precious nephew. I mean have you ever?? He lives close by, but I sure don't get to see him often enough. He is one classy kid.
2. I don't remember if I told you guys that I got eyelash extensions a couple months ago. At the time, I was in love with them.

They are high maintenance though, I had to get them filled in every 2 weeks, which just seemed way too often. I needed to take them off for my surgery, and when I did- I was shocked at what was left of my poor natural lashes. It was awful. What few I actually had left, were short and stubbly. I mostly have bald patches. Thankfully eyelashes grow back.
 No more eyelash extensions for me!

3. Since Jeremy's Dad passed away, he quit his job of 10 years at Sprint, to take over his Dad's business at Primerica Financial Services. This has been a dream of his for many years, although he always dreamed of working with his Dad.
 Last night he officially became an RVP with the company, taking his Dad's place. So they had a big meeting and the whole family celebrated. It was really special.

 My sweet stepsons :)
(My first big outing since my lipo, other than work)
4. Wednesday I had my first post op visit with my Dr. Since my surgery I've lost 3.5 lbs., which really impressed him. He said most people stay the same or gain. I told him I'm serious about losing the rest of this weight!
 He said I was still very swollen and he and the nurse couldn't believe how badly I was bruised. She said "he sure did a number on you, didn't he?" I said I'm glad he did!
He showed me a picture of the 4 liters of fat he removed. It was so gross! (That's like 2, 2 liters of coke!)  He's very happy with my progress and wants to see me again before my half marathon in 3 weeks. (3 WEEKS!! Yes, I'm freaking out)

5. I get a 3 day weekend, the temps are going to be in the 70's, AND I'm going to attempt to run for the first time!

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Movies and a hospital visit

My weekend went a little different than I expected, but it ended up great, which is all that matters!

Charity and I went to see a movie Friday night.

My sweet niece and I went to see "The space between us" on Saturday. It was a movie filled weekend.

My mom's sister passed away this weekend. I never met her. She lived in a group home in Texas. She had the mental capacity of a 2 year old.
 My mom was the oldest of 7, so she grew up taking care of her, and Melinda adored her big sister. She told me that Melinda loved to run, and one thing that aggravated her more than anything was that she couldn't run anymore because she was in really poor health.
I love to think about her running now, totally whole in her mind and body.

Can I just say, how gorgeous is my mom?!

Going through pictures and memories

It has now been 10 days since my lipo, and I'm doing great. I had a little scare yesterday when several people, including my Dr, were concerned that I may have a blood clot. I had all the signs and symptoms of having a blood clot in my foot. I had been having trouble breathing for several days, so we thought it was possible it went to my lung. How scary does that sound!!

 Jeremy took me to the ER and they got me in super fast. We were there for about 4 hours, while they ran every test possible.

 While we were waiting on the results, I noticed my breathing became normal.
 They came in with my results, and every test was perfect! No blood clots, no fluid around my lungs, no heart failure, nothing! I was so so happy and relieved, of course. They attributed everything to post surgery swelling. I know even though this surgery was a 'vain' thing, I still know God was taking care of me.
Btw, I have created a private IG of my lipo journey. It is katlipojourney. It's not pretty though, just so you know.

Here's my declaration for the rest of the year: no more death, no more hospitals, no more scary moments. That's not too much to ask, right??

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Liposuction Recovery Day 5

Today is day 5 since my liposuction, and it has been the best day so far.

As I mentioned before, I wasn't only dealing with soreness, but a couple incisions were very painful. But as of this morning I can tell they are healing, and hardly hurt at all.

I went back to work yesterday and just wanted to cry all day! It was very rough. Up until then I'd only been reclining, laying down, or standing. So sitting straight up in a chair all day hurt. And I even got a brand new huge bruise on my upper stomach from my compression garment because of that.

Trying to smile through the pain

Today was a great day. Still very sore, and I move like an injured, old lady, but that's ok!
I've been walking every day around the house, usually just a mile or two. When I got out of work today it was pouring rain, and I didn't have an umbrella. So, I tried to run to the car. I very quickly realized I can't run yet!!

I also got my best sleep last night. I have to sleep on my back, which is almost impossible for me, but I must be getting used to it, because it's getting easier.

My poor body looks like it was put in a washing machine spin cycle. So many bruises, some small, some huge, all different colors. Cuts, holes, marks- it is such a mess!! Of course I take tons of pictures, but I know most people don't wanna see all that!

 I have not regretted doing this for one second. I know it was the best decision for me!

If you guys have any questions at all, feel free to ask.

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Liposuction recovery day 1

Its been a little over 24 hours since I had liposuction (Writing this Saturday). I'm feeling better than I thought I would.
Everything went great, no problems at all. My Dr removed 9 lbs of fat!
In my consultation he had told me I had a lot in my stomach, so probably most of it was there. My stomach has always been my trouble spot, I've never been able to get rid of it, no matter how hard I tried!
 He also lipo'd my flanks (back fat), inner/outer thighs, and my hips.

My morning started at 6 a.m. We had to be there at 7:30. I had no problem waking up, I was so excited! No makeup or contacts...eeek!

I talked to the nurse, Dr, and anesthesiologist for a little bit, laid down on the table, and I was gone!
Next thing I know, I was in a wheelchair trying to open my eyes to see my nurse and Jeremy.
Jeremy said the first thing I said was "I'm so happy!" Haha!
 I was shaking real bad, I remember asking if the chair was vibrating. Not sure why I was shaking, maybe I was just cold.

They loaded me in the car and we headed home. I thought I would be real sleepy, but I wasn't. I took a short nap after awhile, but I felt really good.

I get to wear this thing for the next month! 24/7 for 2 weeks, then 12 hours a day for 2 weeks.
The blood is because the incisions in my thighs are bleeding quite a bit. One more than the other. If I stand for more than a couple minutes, it starts pouring out blood, even though it has a couple pieces of thick gauze pads on it. Which then causes me to almost pass out. It's a little scary! I wonder how can so much blood come out of this tiny hole! Jeremy said our bathroom looks like a crime scene after changing the dressings. I did text my Dr about it and he said it's normal. He said it's not only blood but also fluids. It should stop soon. All the other insicions are no longer bleeding.

My gf Charity, dropped off some goodies for me. She knows me well!

But, I gave them away. I am going to be very careful about not gaining weight back, and to keep losing the rest. (About 20 lbs) The good thing is, he removed the fat cells,  so fat can never go back to the same areas. But it can go to other areas and cause you to look very dis-proportioned. I do not want that!

 Jeremy fixed me some delicious chicken noodle soup. It was perfect.

Then I had a crazy craving for blueberry yogurt. And I still do.  I would rather have blueberry yogurt than anything else, even ice cream! I know, it's shocking. So one of my sweet sisters went to the store and bought me some. Oh happy day.
Other than that, I've only been eating saltine crackers. I can't take pain meds on an empty stomach.

I do have a massive bruise and swelling on both legs. But when I take this garment off, I can already see such a big difference! He said I won't see the final result for 3 to 6 months, because there's a lot of swelling and it takes a while for your body to settle into its new shape. But I can already tell a difference, especially in my stomach.

I walk around inside the house as often as I can, pretty much until my leg starts bleeding. I'm craving some kind of activity! I know that will help with the soreness as well.

 I'm not supposed to go back to work until Tuesday. Now I'm wishing I had taken the whole week off. Not because I'm in any pain, but to go from sitting to standing is very hard! My stomach is real sore and feels very heavy. But once I'm walking around, I feel fine, it's just that changing of positions.

I have to give a shout out to Jeremy. He has been so wonderful and taken such excellent care of me. He has supported me in this from the very beginning. There's no way I could've done this without him!

 I truly am so happy!  I'm so so glad I had liposuction. I haven't regretted it for a moment!

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Hurry up, Friday!

Why am I rushing Friday? Well...I've gone back and forth the past month on whether I should talk about this here, but have decided to go for it.

On Friday I will be having liposuction! It 's something I've been wanting to do for awhile, but wasn't making enough money with my home daycare to save anything.  But since starting my new job, I've been able to.

I am so excited. I've felt like I work so hard, I eat healthy most of the time, I'm in the gym 4-5 days a week- but my stomach refuses to go away, and my hips refuse to get any smaller!

So I'm having lipo on my stomach, flanks (back fat), inner and outer thighs, and hips. I've done lots of research on this, I wanted to be very well informed and make sure this is what I wanted to do. And it is!

As for my recovery, I'll have the surgery on Friday and then go back to work next Tuesday. Since I sit down all day, my Dr says I should be fine. (He's the same amazing Dr I went to 12 years ago)
 I can start walking as soon as I feel like it, probably after a few days. But I shouldn't start running again for a couple weeks.

The only thing I'm worried about... my next half marathon is in 5.5 weeks! The R'n'R DC half marathon. I will not be able to train for it much at all. I try to always stay half marathon ready physically, but after a surgery like this, and not being able to do any long runs, I'm not sure how it will go. If I have to do a lot of walking during it, I will. I know it will be an amazing experienceeither way.
 And then March 1 I'll start training like a crazy person for my R2R2R hike in the Grand Canyon! So, here's to a super fast and easy recovery!

If you guys have any questions, feel free to ask!

Saturday, January 21, 2017

A movie and trying to move on

I know a lot of people had unseasonably warm weather this weekend, including us. It was awesome. Now if it would just stay this way the rest of the winter, I would be happy.

Jeremy and I went to see Patriots Day. It was so good. It was suspenseful and dramatic. It definitely pulled on the heartstrings. Go see it!!

He seemed to think it was naptime...

After watching the movie I went for my first run of the week. Yes, of the week.
It was more of a walk/run. I really just needed to get active out in the fresh air.

I'm having a really hard time dealing with my Father in law's death. It hit me much harder than I thought it would.
We had his funeral last week, and it went really well. Over 300 people came, not counting the visitation. He was a very loved and respected man.

The family was able to put letters or any other items in the casket with him. It was another heart wrenching moment. My 11 year old nephew read a letter he wrote to his Pepaw out loud to us before he put it in. I just can't describe the pain in my heart seeing and hearing that.

 I put in a medal I received after my hardest marathon. I felt like I fought for every mile, and getting that medal at the finish line was an incredible reward. It reminded me of what a fighter he was, and always has been. And now he has his reward too, in heaven.

You can see Muhammed Ali's grave from my Father in law's. 2 fighters.

Everyone has been amazing during this time. We've had meals brought to us, food given, cards, messages, etc.
I'm trying to stay strong, and not get to a depressed place. That sounds weird to even say, but it's true. Today I will start running again, which I know will be a huge help. This will be my first full week back at work, which will be great, because my coworkers are the best in the world. I have the most amazing counselor, whom I plan on seeing again soon. My husband is beyond incredible and is such a strength to me, as I try to be for him.
 More than anything, God will get me through this. The joy of the Lord is my strength!

 And because I don't want to end negatively, I'll share a picture of when I recently got to take out my favorite 5 year old. She's the girl I nannied since she was 6 weeks old. She makes me feel how I imagine it must feel to be a mom. I adore her to pieces.

Monday, January 16, 2017

Saying goodbye to my sweet Father in law

I mentioned how we didn't have a good Christmas. Here's why:

A few days before Christmas my Father in law was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia. He was 71 years old.
He was the epitome of health. He was the healthiest person I know. He was in the gym 4-5 days a week, very active, always ate healthy, etc. The dr's said he had the body of a 40 year old.

Last Spring he noticed he was getting out of breath a lot, for no reason at all. He attributed that to his age.

Right before Christmas he had blood work done and that's when they discovered the AML. It most likely had started in the Spring. They told him if he hadn't come in when he did, he would only have lived a few more weeks. Absolutely shocking to all of us.

They immediately admitted him and started a week of 24/7 chemo. After those 7 days they said the chemo had not worked, and in further testing discovered his form of cancer was extremely rare and resistant to treatment.
 They were going to try some clinical trials and see if they could at least stop the growth of the leukemia, so maybe he could have 6 more months with us, instead of weeks.

But Wednesday morning he became unresponsive and went into a coma. Tests showed he had massive bleeding on his brain. He wouldn't wake up again.

They removed him from the ventilator Wednesday night, and said he would be gone quickly. Well, Steve is very stubborn, and he always does things his way! He didn't pass away until Friday morning. His heart was so healthy, it just kept on beating.

He was in palliative care the last couple days, and as hard as it was for us, we cherished every moment.

His family was surrounding him every moment. There wasn't a second that someone wasn't talking to him, touching him in some way. Jeremy and his 2 sisters all sing, so there was constant singing going on. Those last couple days were so special. So unreal. How could this super healthy man be in this position, when just a few weeks ago he seemed to be in perfect health?
 He told everyone he was going to live to be 120, and no one doubted him for a second.

Can you believe he was 70 here??
He was such a wonderful father in law. He truly treated me like a daughter. He would buy me things for no reason other than he thought I would like it. We would go on dates. We went to see Michael Buble, the Sister Act musical, etc. He would buy me outlandish clothes because he thought they would look good on me! He loved exercise as much as I do, so he would always tell me about his workouts, and wanted to hear about my running.

He loved extravagantly, and was loved extravagantly. He was a charmer, and everyone who met him just fell in love with him. Even the short time he was in the hospital, his nurses adored him and all came to see him when he was in palliative, just heartbroken.

Above all these things, he loved Jesus more than anything. I know he is so happy right now in His presence. He loved attention and loved to sing (a gift he passed on to his children), I can just imagine God having him sing in front of a huge audience in heaven.

I will always cherish every phone call, every text, every conversation, every moment we had together in the 12 years I knew him.

I've never gone through loss like this before, so it's all a new experience for me. As well as for Jeremy and my boys. He was a wonderful pepaw to his 6 grandchildren. He spoiled them to the fullest. In October he took my Matthew to Chicago for a few days to celebrate his high school graduation. He adored my boys. I can't put into words how hard it is to watch them just weep over him. It tears my heart apart.

The next few days will seem impossible to get through for all of us. Heck, the next few weeks and years will feel that way. But we have the hope we will see him again.

If I could've picked out who I wanted as a Father in law, I would've chosen Steve over a million times.

My wedding day with my new mother and father in law.