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Monday, June 24, 2013

Am I a Non Responder?

Happy Monday, my friends!

  I hope y'all had a fabo weekend! Mine was super busy, but super fun!
On Saturday we spent the day at my FIL's, he had a special day for all the grandkids with an inflatable water slide and bounce house. They all had a blast, all of us parents pretty much melted in the heat! 

Sunday was my youngest sister's 20th birthday. J and I went out to eat with her and her boyfriend. This beautiful girl shouldn't be here today. A year ago she had a terrible car accident, and she should've died. It was horrible and really shook all of us up. It still brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it. But for the grace of God!!

It's amazing how looking at pictures of yourself can change EVERYTHING. 
Here's the truth. Last year I lost 30 lbs. I have not lost anything since January. In fact, I've gained back 10 lbs.!! I've been feeling horrible about that, but of course I'm still following my marathon training plan (currently around 25 miles a week), and I do strength training about 3 times a week, so I keep thinking this weight HAS to come off! Well, we took pics yesterday and I am now TOTALLY depressed. I can't believe I'm posting this, because now you all will see how chunky I really am. But here goes...

Look at my midsection!! Look at my fat arms! And I lift weights!! What the heck??
I am so discouraged. I've never been a calorie counter, but last week I decided to start counting my calories, using the Lose It app. For me to lose 2 lbs a week, it says I need to eat 1300 calories a day. I realized I eat around 800-900 a day! I know that's too little, but I still don't understand how someone can eat that few of calories, get lots of exercise and still be fat! 
 So, I hooked up with my good friend Google to try to find some answers.
I started reading about non responders. Some people can be genetically programmed to be a low responder to exercise. Some people are high responders and quickly lose weight and gain muscle mass, and others show no outward changes, although they are still getting healthier. I feel like I am healthy, I truly believe I could go out right now and run another marathon. But I am so tired of looking this way.
 Something has to change!! If you have any advice, or if you have ever been in this boat, please share!
katie
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  1. I have been really discouraged with my weight loss too. I lost 20 pounds last year and I have put back on about 10 of them. I have been working out a lot and just dont get it either! But you have to stay positive. And let me tell you that you look amazing in that picture. The last thing I see is fat! You can do this girl! Just keep pushing through and you will get there!!

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    1. Oh, thank you so much! It is discouraging when you work so hard to get it off, but it can come back on SO easy! We WILL get there!

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  2. Thank heavens your sis made it through!

    This post makes me feel very concerned about your perception of your body. I know it's hard when you put weight back on, but you are saying such harsh things about yourself! The truth is, marathoners don't really look a certain way. Okay, maybe elites do, but the rest of us look a variety of different ways. I doubt you would see someone heavier than you who ran a marathon and think they weren't a marathoner because of the way they look.

    I am not a nutritionist, but everything I read says going under 1200 calories a day is too dang low. Especially if you are working out as much as you are. I doubt you are a non responder. It sounds like your body is just holding on to whatever it can because you are not eating enough :( Have you thought about seeing a nutritionist to make a plan for you?

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    1. I just love how you always give me a different perspective on things. Thank you!!! You are right, I would never say someone doesn't look like a marathoner if they are bigger than me, I totally agree that we come in all shapes and sizes. I am going to start eating more calories and see if that helps. I will check into seeing a nutritionist, I think that's a great idea!

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  3. First you are not fat! This is something that I can honestly say I know exactly what you mean and how you feel. However, as someone who has 39 marathons under their belt, let me tell you this. Any real runner (expecially marathoners) know that runners come in all shapes and sizes. It's discouraging if we want to look a certain way, trust me I know I would love to be the skinny flat typical model runner. But I am bigger boned and I never will be. But one thing I have learned. I ran 14 marathons last year and did nothing but gain 15 pounds. This year I haven't been able to run due to injury and I dropped 18 pounds easy. Its harder to lose weight when your running because you get hungry. I think you'll find that for marathon training somewhere between 1,500 - 2,500 calories a day is completely acceptable and will actually help you lose weight, it all comes down to what we actually put into ourselves.
    FYI, I learned this the hard way, but if you eat too few calories did you know it can make you gain weight, or keep you from losing it. Its true, I guess our bodies go into "prepare for starvation mode". Start focusing on foods that are higher fiber that will fill you up faster, and find healthy carbs and proteins, and I think you'll notice extra pounds will drop and things will tone up:) Good luck! And just so you know I am right there with ya, I have about 30 pounds I would like to loose before fall marathon season! Best of luck to us both!!!

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    1. I've gotta say, I'm SO impressed you've ran 39 marathons, and 14 last year!! That is just incredible!!
      I realize that I am eating too few calories, esp with all the exercise I do. I will change that! I did wonder though if running was preventing me from losing weight. It's so ironic! Good luck to you on your 30, I know we can do this!!

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  4. OMG you are not FAT!!! We are so hard on ourselves!!! I hit my "reset button" today. Though my exercise has been consistent my eating not so much. A few pounds have crept back up and I struggle with them settling in my midsection too. I sometimes think "You ran 5 miles this morning. Go ahead and eat an entire pizza!" As I have gotten older I see how the food I eat is more important then the time I spend exercising.
    Girl, you are gorgeous!! You've got this:)

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    1. Thank you so much, Teresa. I know we're so hard on ourselves! I think the same way sometimes, except for me it's a gallon of ice cream! ;)

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  5. First, everyone else is right, you are not fat! Next, let me say, you don't eat enough!!! Your body is holding on to every calorie because YOU ARE STARVING IT! Add 500-600 calories of good food and you'll probably drop the weight in no time. You might want to mix up when you eat, eat every couple of hours, exercise at night once or twice a week, just stir the pot, your body is used to what you're doing, scare it a little. But FUEL IT!

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    1. Thank you, Liz. I will do that!! I like the idea of scaring my body and doing something different! I will begin to add extra GOOD calories.

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  6. As stated in the above comments, Katie, you need to eat more calories in day to FUEL your body! I haven't lost a pound since December and I've been keeping it off with my running. I have lost inches, though. I eat anywhere from 1,300 to 1,800 calories a day. Sometimes more! I make sure that my calories count! No junk. (And yes, I still have my ice cream!) I have found that if I don't eat enough when I'm training, I become exhausted more. My body starts holding onto what I'm putting into it instead of using it to help me go. Your body is a gift from God. You need to be kind to it, nourish it, and take care of it! You're doing so well already! But it's easy to get off of the path. I know you can reach your goal weight. It will take time. You know that. I know it. Love your body. Feed your body. It will, and can, do amazing things! I just needs the proper fuel! And you are gorgeous, lady! On the inside AND outside. You are loved by so many people. It hurts my heart when you put yourself down. Don't. You are a daughter of God. You are unique, divine, and beautiful!

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    1. I just love you, my friend! I have got to totally change the way I've been eating. I do eat healthy (except for ice cream), but now I realize I'm just not eating enough. Thank you so much sweet girl!

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  7. Well you're not fat for one thing but you are starving yourself and that's why your body is not letting go of any weight. I know a few people posted the same thing so I hope you look into it. It's just to little calories for what you are doing. I hope we've helped!

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    1. Thank you, I will definitely look into it and change. You all have helped SO much!

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    1. Are you really? :(
      Do you still exercise? I love it, so could never stop, but it sure is discouraging!

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  9. As everyone else said, you aren't fat! You are a healthy, beautiful woman. I know how hard it is to be discouraged, but you aren't what you are seeing. As others stated, your body is probably in starvation mode due to too few calories. Up the (healthy) foods you are eating, and I bet you'll start to see a change. We're cheering for you!!

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    1. I will definitely start doing things different. Time for a change! Thank you, Tyly!

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  10. First of all, I think you look beautiful! And obviously, you are fit and healthy, so be proud of that! On the flip side, I can totally relate to the weight struggle. I started running & losing weight in November, 2011, and by November 2012 I had lost 50 pounds and ran my first half. Since then though, my weight has been up and down and I keep gaining and losing the same 5-7 pounds. I can't seem to get back on the losing track. I would love to lose 30 more pounds, but I can't seem to lose 5, so sometimes I feel so discouraged. My kids tell me that I'm not fat, and I look amazing compared to 50 pounds ago, but I know in my heart I need to lose more (my BMI still considers me "overweight", bordering on "obese).

    I wish I had some magic answer for you, but I don't. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone! :)

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    1. Thank you so much, Jen. It is so nice to know I'm not alone and others have this struggle too. You know since you've lost 50 before, you can do it again. When I compare myself to my 'before' pics, that definitely encourages me. It also makes me determined to never go back! We can do this, girl!!

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  11. I'll be the 74th person to tell you that you're NOT FAT! I know how you feel, though. People tell me the same thing, but that doesn't change how I feel about myself. I just want to tell them, "Clothes hide a multitude of sins! You haven't seen me naked!" But I don't say that. :)
    I'm not a fitness or diet expert, but I have read that people plateau. Your body is used to doing the same types of exercise, and you probably need to change things up. I know you have been doing spin and weightlifting, but what about any other type of class? When you lift weights, do you use machines? Because personal trainers are so expensive, get on YouTube and look up some workout ideas for different parts of your body. I do that with the girls at work and you don't even need a gym to do most of it! And even though you're working the same parts of your body, any change in exercise is going to make a difference.
    I also agree with the others, you're not fueling your body properly. Especially for a runner, your body NEEDS fuel and nutrients. Focus on eating healthy food, and eat more of it.

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    1. The only kind of class I take is spin. I usually do Debbie Sieber's slim in 6 program for strength. I have found a few good videos on YouTube as well. Thanks for the advice girlie!

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  12. You are not eating enough. Plain and simple. That is a ridiculous amount of calories and you should see a nutritionist. A runner who isn't eating enough risks injury, slows their metabolism, and more. See link for more info:
    http://www.livestrong.com/article/532385-runners-not-eating-enough-calories/

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  13. oh man. So know how you feel! I lost 40 lbs last yr (for like a nanosecond). I had a running injury while training for my first half, and started to gain a few lbs on then and over the holidays. I gained ~7 lbs during that time. Then this spring, I experienced an unexpected pregnancy and subsequent miscarriage following. Hello 10 lbs gained. :(

    I am now sitting at 163 vs. 146 (my lowest point). I am working my way back down, but it is slow going so far. *Just started running again!

    I am an also a Lose It! app person - LOVE IT! Check out their forums online for more help, they are actually good, uplifting forums.

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    1. I hate how it's SO hard to get it off, but so easy to put back on! That's great that you started running again. We can do this!! I didn't know Lose It had forums, I will get on there!

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    2. And it feels like I have 'forgotten' how to lose weight....or rather the same drive I had previously. It is weird!

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  14. I can understand where your coming from, I have lost 80 lbs. I did it using Body Media, which is the Metabolic reader Biggest Loser uses. On average I burn about 2700 calories a day and would eat around 1500 a day leaving a weight loss rate of about 1 lb every 2-3 days. Each pound is 3500 calories. It is critical to count calories, measure foods and read labels. Mother nature is also harder on women, we retain fluid sometimes have digestive back ups which can all throw our numbers off. Those more I have lost the slower my weight loss rate has dropped and I know it is because I am more relaxed about my food intake. My suggestion would be to never go under 1200 calories a day, from what I learned reading Jillian Michaels book is that anything under that can damage your thyroid and lower your metabolism. Also see your doctor and get blood work to check it out, sometimes a simple imbalance can throw things off. Best of luck to you and by the way you look beautiful!!!

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    1. Thank you so much, Jessica! I've heard a lot about Jillian's book, I think I'll get it. Congrats on your 80! That is amazing!!

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  15. I think you are very pretty, regardless of weight. Please don't say such negative things about yourself! Besides, did you know that studies have shown that negative thoughts and negative self-talk actually make us fatter? I just read that from A. Conrad's fb page. :)

    That caloric level is WAYY to low. 1300 is even way to low! If your body doesn't get enough calories it will go into starvation mode. Then when you DO eat more your body thinks it needs to store those calories as fat so that it will be able to make it through the next starvation period. That is not loving or caring for you body! You should up your caloric level -- I wouldn't go any lower than 1800 right now since you've been starving yourself. It also sounds like you may be suffering some metabolic damage. This is an excellent video if you would like to check it out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHHzie6XRGk
    See a nutritionist, one who knows what they are talking about.

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    1. I didn't know that negative self talk can make us fatter, but I believe it! The same way I know that it can keep you from achieving a lot of things. I am working on it!
      I will see a nutritionist. Thank you for the link and for the advice! :)

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    2. I just watched the whole video. Wow! I do believe I have really messed up my body and my metabolism. Time to fix it! Thank you so much!

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    3. No problem! I think it's awesome that you are so willing to admit that you might not have it all together -- very genuine. :) I hope things change for the better with your health!

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    4. Oh dear, now that I read that back to myself it sounds... not like I meant! I meant that it's awesome that you don't have that attitude of "I'm perfect, nothings wrong with me"... but that you are very down to earth. :)

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    5. Lol! I totally know what you mean. Thank you, that means a lot to me! :)

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  16. You look beautiful! I'm sure someone probably already said this in another comment but eating too few calories can keep you from losing weight. You are obviously doing a great job working out so perhaps seeking the advice of a nutritionist would be a good step to take.

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    1. Thank you Suz! You're so sweet. :) I will be looking for a nutritionist!

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  17. I know the last thing you want to hear right now is how great you look. I don't think you look fat at all. Seriously. However, I totally see what you're getting at. I'm totally in the same boat. I'm often very discouraged buy the way I look - especially my tummy. Lately, I've somehow just come to terms with it. Would I like a perfectly trimmed and toned tummy? Absolutely! Am I okay with how I look in the meantime? Yep! I figure as long as I keep trying and working on being healthy, I'm okay with still being a little chunky. As chubby as I may feel, I just look around at so many of my co-workers and friends, and realize just how thin I am in comparison. I feel like this comment isn't really making any sense.

    All-in-all, keep doing what you're doing! You look great, honestly.

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    1. That is my trouble area too- my stomach. It's funny to hear you say you're okay with being a little chunky, I don't think you look chunky AT ALL! I think you look amazing! But I know we all see ourselves in a way no one else does. And I think your comment makes perfect sense. Thanks lady!! :)

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  18. You seriously need to eat more calories to start losing weight - especially when working out so much! It is hard mentally to do but it works. Also, you want to go with the 1300 calories plus whatever calories you are burning in your workouts. Do you have a heart rate monitor that tells you that information?? Running burns a ton of calories and 1300 calories won't fuel those runs so you'll be adding calories to compensate for what you are burning there. You will probably be up around 2000 some days. Try it for a few weeks and see if it works.

    I also read your response to the comments people made in response to your using fat or chunky... It is your reality and you can use whatever words work to express your feelings. Honestly, enough with the PC already. If she wants to call herself fat or whatever, if it is her reality then so be it. She is just trying to be real. I hate when you read some fitness blogs and they are all "life is amazing, I never struggle, blah, blah, blah." That isn't real. It's not as if you were calling someone else fat. Enough of my rant. ;)

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    1. I have been using the Lose It app, so I add in my exercise to that too. I do get more calories on those days, just don't usually use them. But I will from now on!
      Oh Bobbi, you're awesome! Lol! Thank you so much. I AGREE. That is my reality! That doesn't mean I hate myself, I don't. It's just where I'm at right now and how I honestly feel. Rant on, my friend! :)

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