I think I have runner's guilt, because I'm in a running funk. I don't know what's wrong with me. Well, I do, but I guess they'd just be excuses.
My running lately has been horrible. I mean, embarrassingly horrible. As in, the past 6 months have been my slowest months. I did have an injury and had to take 6 weeks off. But I just haven't gotten back into it.
This time last year I was running over 80 miles every month. Well into the 90's. Of course I was training for a 100 mile race, but dang!! Lately my months have been in the 20's. The 20's!!
I still love running. I am passionate about it. Every time I finish a run, I am always so glad I did it. I love being a runner and I'm so proud that I am.
I've alluded a little bit to what's been going on in my personal life, and for over a year now it's been hard. Very hard. I feel like I'm at the bottom of a pit and my fingers are numb from trying to claw my way out.
To add to that, I can't find a job, I've gained weight, and it's freakin cold outside!
So, those are my excuses. They should make me WANT to get out and run, right?
Why do I feel guilty? Because I've let people down. Some people became my friend back when I was training for 100 miles, back when I ran 20 miles around a track, or 20 miles on my treadmill, back when I was an inspiration. That's the Katie they knew and liked.
Now when I'm discouraged and having a hard time, they're gone.
BUT, there is hope. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, in regards to this running funk anyway. Why, you ask? I have 2 marathons next Spring, in March and April, and training starts Monday!
So I am determined to come out of this. No matter how I'm feeling. I will do this.
How do you get out of a funk?