Saturday was my 18 miler. I was super nervous. I really don't know why. I kept telling myself this was not a race, just a run. But that didn't calm me down much. I guess just the thought of running 18 miles is a little daunting.
I got to the park and drove up to this.
The place I always run was blocked off because of flooding. I knew what that meant. I was going to have to run all my miles on a very small area that wasn't blocked off.
So, I turned around and parked and mentally prepared myself for this. I was going to be running on a 1/2 mile section of the park...for 18 miles.
Yes, I could've tried to find another park, but I'm at comfortable at this one. I thought, hey, I did 16 miles on the treadmill a couple weeks ago, I can do this!
I ran for 14 miles. At that point I couldn't do it anymore! That area was hilly, I had gotten rained on once (which felt good), I was wet and muddy. I was done.
Then I got on my facebook page. Earlier I had posted about heading out for my 18 miles and how I was nervous. I got so many wonderful, encouraging comments, telling me that I can do this.
After reading those comments, I KNEW I had to finish. No way was I going to quit.
So I drove around and went into the same park, using a back entrance. And whaddya know, most of it was open! Here I had ran 14 miles on a 1/2 mile path, and if I had just driven around some more, I would've found out a big section of the park was open! Oh well, ya live and learn.
So, how am I feeling now? Glad you asked.
I'm still thinking I don't know if I can do this marathon in 5 weeks! I'm still a little discouraged since this 18 miles was so crappy. Believe me, I know all runs can't be good ones. But this one has just messed with my mind.
Next Saturday I have 14, so that will be easy. Then the following week will be my 20. I will do it, and then decide for sure after that. I think I'd be very disappointed with myself if I don't do the full. I've done the full the last 2 years, it was my very first marathon ever.
This morning I went to spin class and then back to the park (it was dry!) for another 4 miles. This run was much better, it's a beautiful, sunny day, and I was reminded why I love running.
Did you run this weekend?