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Sunday, August 21, 2016

A good for the soul run!

My Saturday run was amazing! It's been a few weeks since I've done a long run, and I sure have missed them. It was peaceful and quiet, with an off and on rain. It was just what I needed, one of those good for the soul runs.
 My running goal this month is 105 miles. I have 38 to go.


My twinnie's hubby (Kristin's dad) had a welcome home party for her. It was great to see my family again!
After spending 24/7 for 6 weeks with them both, I've been missing them like crazy this week. Thankfully they only live 10 minutes away from me.



Now that I'm back, I've been trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life. Kinda crazy at almost 39 years old! Kind of depressing.

Here's the mumbo jumbo that's been going on.
I have to find a job. What do I even want to do? What I want to do, I can't do because I have no degree. Should I go back to school for 4 years? Sure, that sounds fun. But wait, if I do that I will never have a baby. But wait, my husband doesn't want one anyway. What am I gonna do about that? Why did I not realize how important education was 20 years ago? Oh, I thought I would be a stay at home mom, like my mom. Why didn't I realize life doesn't go how you planned it? What should I do. Well, I can be a nanny again. Ha! No thank you. All I really want is to be a mom. I wish I could go back in time. But I can't. So I have to start now. Start what? I have absolutely no clue.

And there you have 30 seconds in Katie's brain. Fun, huh? This is why I run. :)

I did get to spend a few hours with my favorite 5 year old ever. (This is the girl I nannied since she was 6 weeks old)
 I also got to see her baby sister, who I adored. It's heartbreaking that now she just looks at me, and no longer recognizes me. (It's only been 2.5 months!) Gahhh.


This morning I have a phone interview with a bank, and then lunch later with a sweet friend.
Have a happy Monday!!


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  1. I really understand. I'm 40 and have no idea what I want to do when I grow up. I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis. I want to change my career completely, but even with 2 degrees it's hard cause they are not what I want to do anymore. At some point I will figure it all out, or not. :)

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    1. Yes, that's what I think I'm having too. Here's to hoping we both get it all figured out soon! :)

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  2. Girlfriend - I know you have a twin, but we sound like twins. Your thoughts have been the very thoughts in my head as well. I have that debate at going back to school myself. I gave up the college degree & I wish I held education higher in life. I too thought I'd be a mom... yeah...
    Praying for direction on what you should do.
    PS... again with the GORGEOUS cake!

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  3. Those are some very detailed thoughts you've been having!! And I think all the debating you're doing is completely normal in this phase of life. I'm 36 and have a lot of those same "what if" thoughts too. It makes me wonder what I should have done differently also. I guess we will all figure it out together! :-)

    April in Georgia

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  4. Welcome home and awesome job on your running goal! You'll totally hit that 105 miles this month! :) I wish I could offer advice on the career thing. My parents didn't finish college and so pushed the three of us till we got our degrees. Unfortunately, they didn't emphasize goals or planning for the future so my degrees haven't done much to help me career-wise (German and Journalism, yet I work in payroll). You'll find something, I'm sure of it.

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  5. I think this sort of thinking is totally normal! I'm 36 and I have found myself looking back and wondering what I could have/should have done differently. All in all, I'm pretty happy with where I am, but I too wish I had put more emphasis on education when I was younger. I guess we will figure it out together! :-)

    April in Georgia

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    1. True, I know I'm not the only one who wishes I could go back and do things differently. Yes, we sure will!! :)

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  6. I can relate to a lot of this so don't feel crazy! I did go to uni and have kids and I hate what I went to uni for. I love having kids and.would love to have more, but we can't afford it and I need to go back to work but have no passions, apart from my kids.
    I am so sorry for all you have been through with infertility etc. Must be so so hard. You are an awesome lady xxxx

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    1. It's taken me all these years to figure out what it is I'd like to do. For me, I was so focused on being a mom, that nothing else really mattered. That was my only passion! So, it's never too late to figure yours out. Thank you, Jess. Infertility is not something I EVER thought I'd have to deal with, but we just have to do our best with what we're given. You're so sweet. Xoxo

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