Monday, February 29, 2016

Some ice dream and an awesome RAOK

It's hard to believe another month is gone! I am not sad to see January and February leave though. March just sounds like Spring- or at least Spring is on its way.

We had another beautiful weekend here in Kentucky. I ran 10 amazing, glorious, wonderful miles. I loved every single second. My pace was even better then usual too, woohoo!
 I definitely did not need yet another ice cream addiction, but the chic fil a 'ice dream' is amazing! I don't go there often, but when I do I only get a diet lemonade (also to die for). After my 10 miler, I really needed ice cream, so decided to try their's. One of the best things I ever did.

My running mileage so far this year has been the worst since I started running a few years ago. January was 29, and February was only 27 miles. I guess when my life gets crazy and depressing, I just stop. I've gotta get out of this though and get back to what I love!
 I did decide to switch my marathon on April 16 to the half. I just don't have it in me to train for a full right now.

I took a spin class last week. I love my spin class. Usually.

I know I've talked about the Thursday night instructor before, and how horrible he is. But he hadn't been there for months, so I assumed he was gone.
 But apparently, he came back.
Do you know, I did not pick up my sweat towel even once? I didn't even work up a sweat! Halfway through he said "I'm about to give you all a break". I almost laughed out loud.
 He doesn't actually ride the bike, he just walks around the whole room, telling us what to do. He'll stand in front of each person and just say kooky stuff. Sometimes he'll bang on the wall over and over and over. As if he's keeping rhythm or something. Then he'll shake your bike, who knows why. Ughhh! It's definitely back to Tuesday night's for me!

Finding this random act of kindness in my Redbox movie was a great surprise. I've never even thought of doing this before. I did keep it in there though, for the next person.

Favorite thing to eat/drink at Chic Fil A?

What was the last RAOK you received or how did you pay it forward?



Friday, February 26, 2016

Infertility journey Part 2

You can go here to read part 1 of my infertility story.

And now here is part 2.
Last month I had the HSG  test to determine if my tubes were open. Much to my surprise, they were. I was elated. That meant I still had a chance. I wasn't sure how it would happen, but at least I knew I could get pregnant.

There are three steps you go through before seeing a fertility specialist. First, you have the HSG test, then you have blood work done to check your hormones, eggs and ovaries, then your husband has a semen analysis (irrelevant in my situation).

For some reason, after passing the HSG, I just assumed everything was good to go.
But I was wrong. I got excited a little too early.

Yesterday I got the results of my blood test back. I have DOR, Diminished Ovary Reserve, and am unable to produce eggs, and have poor egg health.

After reading about this online for hours, it looks like my only option would be IVF, with donor eggs. Cost is $25-$50k. So that's definitely out of the question. If I was going to spend that much money, I would choose to adopt.

I've had a very hard couple days. Knowing I will never be pregnant, never have my 'own' baby, never having that experience, it's extremely hard to deal with.

Last week I met my mom and sisters for breakfast, and I brought along the 9 month old girl I babysit. The waitress was talking to her and playing with her. She told us how she always wanted kids, but wasn't able to have them. She's now probably late 60's. With tears in her eyes she said "people who have children don't know how blessed they really are".
Wow. That broke my heart for her.

It also made me determined that will never be me. Never ever.

At the moment it's hard to find joy, it's hard to smile, but I will get through this.

Psalms 121:1 says 'I lift my eyes up to the mountains, where does my help come from.'
I could not get through this without God. He is my strength.
 Also my running and spin classes really help. There's nothing better than working up a good sweat to take your mind off of life for awhile.

Until next time...



here

Monday, February 22, 2016

The missing piece

This weekend was amazing! Why? Because Saturday was 70 degrees and sunny. I had been looking forward to Saturday's run for a long time. I only ran 5 miles though. I could've done more, but I didn't. Trying not to beat myself up over that.
Saturday night I went to see comedian Dan Cummings with a friend. He was actually pretty funny. It was nice to forget about life for awhile, and just laugh!

 Sunday night we had an adoption celebration for my nephew!
My sister, who lives in WI with her hubby and 2 other sons, had been fostering Robert. After going through hell with the birth parents for a couple years, they were finally able to adopt him a couple weeks ago. So they came back to KY so we could all celebrate.
 We are SO happy that he is officially part of our family!

We all wrote messages on these puzzle pieces, and my sister will put the puzzle together and then frame it.

My beautiful sister with "Bob-Bob"

How amazing is the cake my twinnie made for him! I cried the first time I saw it.

Brothers for life


Loving on their youngest brother

A very serious moment with the twin

And then a not so serious moment

While I was there I thought it would be fun to go muddin' and get my car stuck. Thankfully I have a lot of big, tough brother in law's, who pulled me out. Of course I had just gotten my car washed too.
I love love love adoption. About 5 years ago Jeremy and I were going to adopt a baby girl from India. We had been waiting for 2 years, when they told us it would be another 2 year wait (when they had originally told us the wait was less than a year!).
And since everything had now expired, we would have to pay all the fees all over again, etc. We just weren't able to do it, so that door shut.
 But of course I still think about what could've been, all the time. So, adoption is very close to my heart.
Robert truly brings so much joy to our family. I just wish they lived closer!


Thursday, February 11, 2016

A test and strength training lately

Monday and Tuesday I took my Concealed Carry class. I was really nervous about the shooting test because I hadn't shot a gun in several years, and the gun I was using for the test, I had never shot before.
 About an hour before my first class started, Jeremy and I went to my sisters house (she has lots of property), and I shot a few rounds.
It was freezing cold, snowing hard and very windy, but I did it! So that made me feel a little more comfortable about the test, although I hadn't shot at a target, so I wasn't sure if I could make that.

The class I took was a Ladies only class. There were 25 of us in the class, and I was the youngest one! (And I'm 38)
 I would say probably 90% were women over 60. I was so surprised. I thought it would be mostly younger women, and very few if any, older women. I was totally wrong.

It was very informative, and very interesting. I learned a lot and gained a lot of appreciation/respect for a gun.

Then it was test time. Time to shoot the target man. We had to get 11 out of 20 on the target. The target area was much larger than I thought it would be, so that was a relief.
 I felt like my shots were all over the place, but in the end, most of them were on the target, and I passed. Shew!!

Then it was time for the written test. It was open book, so I didn't think it would be too bad, and it wasn't. Out of 25 questions, I only missed 1.

I am so glad that's over!

In other news...I am off Weight Watchers. It just wasn't working for me. :(

I worked out with my personal trainer for the last time, and she kept saying how much stronger I was.  Remember when she was surprised how weak I was? Remember when I could hardly even do 1 pushup? This time I did 20! Hard work pays off!

 She wrote out 2 workout plans for me that I will do on my own 4 times a week. I will meet with her once a month from now on.

 Today is my Friday. I get a 4 day weekend! Somehow I have to do a 14 mile run. I have a feeling that will be done on the treadmill, because I don't run outside when the temps are in the teens.
 Who am I kidding, I don't run outside if it's below 40.

Anyone else get a long weekend?



Monday, February 8, 2016

Batman and some running

My weekend was filled with birthdays!
We celebrated my sweet nephew's 1st birthday. I can't believe he's already 1.

 
My twinnie made his smash cake and some amazing cupcakes.

My beautiful Mamma with Xavi.
Saturday my stepson had a Batman 18th birthday party. I met him when he was 7! Hard to believe.

Matthew and I with Batman

Jeremy and Batman
 I had 7 miles on the schedule for this weekend. My Saturday was pretty busy getting ready for the party, and it was COLD outside. So I decided to do my run Sunday afternoon instead.
 I ran 5 by myself, and then Nikky met me for a few more.
It was a perfectly gorgeous day, the last nice day we're going to have for awhile.


What about that Superbowl? Man, Lady Gaga killed it. She seriously gave me chills.
Good game, great Halftime show, and my team won! :)

Tonight and tomorrow night I'm going to a "ladies only" gun class, to get my concealed carry permit. I haven't shot a gun in a few years, so I'm hoping I can at least hit the target and pass the class!

What was your fave part of the Superbowl?
Did you run this weekend?

Monday, February 1, 2016

Finally a long run!

Hey guys!
As I mentioned last week, I started marathon training again. Saturday's long run called for 12 miles.
 I was supposed to attend a concealed carry class (yay!), but when I found out the weather was supposed to be in the 60's, and my Sunday was going to be packed, therfore no time for a long run, I knew I had to reschedule my class. Priorities, people!

 So, that's just what I did.
This run was amazing.

You guys. I had not ran in almost 4 weeks!! In fact, my mileage for Jan. was only 29 miles! My lowest month ever.
A few weeks ago I walked a about a million laps around a very small indoor track, and that caused the same tendons that I tore in my ankle a year ago, to flare up again (caused by going in the same direction the whole time). So I wanted to stop all running, to make sure I didn't reinjure it. Plus, this cold weather really knocks me out of my running.
 Thankfully, it is all back to normal, and I can get back to my running routine again.

This is going to be a fabulous month! Lots of running, spinning and strength training. And of course the never ending journey of trying to lose weight. Weight Watchers is not going so well, to be honest.
But today is a new day!

Did you have Spring like weather this weekend?