Saturday, January 21, 2017

A movie and trying to move on

I know a lot of people had unseasonably warm weather this weekend, including us. It was awesome. Now if it would just stay this way the rest of the winter, I would be happy.

Jeremy and I went to see Patriots Day. It was so good. It was suspenseful and dramatic. It definitely pulled on the heartstrings. Go see it!!

He seemed to think it was naptime...

After watching the movie I went for my first run of the week. Yes, of the week.
It was more of a walk/run. I really just needed to get active out in the fresh air.


I'm having a really hard time dealing with my Father in law's death. It hit me much harder than I thought it would.
We had his funeral last week, and it went really well. Over 300 people came, not counting the visitation. He was a very loved and respected man.

The family was able to put letters or any other items in the casket with him. It was another heart wrenching moment. My 11 year old nephew read a letter he wrote to his Pepaw out loud to us before he put it in. I just can't describe the pain in my heart seeing and hearing that.

 I put in a medal I received after my hardest marathon. I felt like I fought for every mile, and getting that medal at the finish line was an incredible reward. It reminded me of what a fighter he was, and always has been. And now he has his reward too, in heaven.

You can see Muhammed Ali's grave from my Father in law's. 2 fighters.


Everyone has been amazing during this time. We've had meals brought to us, food given, cards, messages, etc.
I'm trying to stay strong, and not get to a depressed place. That sounds weird to even say, but it's true. Today I will start running again, which I know will be a huge help. This will be my first full week back at work, which will be great, because my coworkers are the best in the world. I have the most amazing counselor, whom I plan on seeing again soon. My husband is beyond incredible and is such a strength to me, as I try to be for him.
 More than anything, God will get me through this. The joy of the Lord is my strength!

 And because I don't want to end negatively, I'll share a picture of when I recently got to take out my favorite 5 year old. She's the girl I nannied since she was 6 weeks old. She makes me feel how I imagine it must feel to be a mom. I adore her to pieces.




10 comments:

  1. Ahh - I'm so glad you stay in touch with the little girl you nannied. That's special.
    Bless your heart. Loss is always so hard. & that you put in your medal - that made me teary eyed.
    A crowded funeral shows a life well lived.

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  2. My grandfather passed away unexpectedly right before Thanksgiving, and it just finally hit me, of all times and places, on the treadmill the other morning. I was more upset then than I was the day I found out, but something about it was cathartic. Running is so powerful, through good and bad situations - I hope you get back to it and that it helps you heal <3

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  3. I am so sorry about your Father in Law xxxx Sounds like you are doing all the right things, grief is just so hard. I still sometimes cry for my Grandma like it was a few days ago and it was going on 8 years!

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    1. Thank you Jess. It is so hard, and it sounds like the pain never really goes away. I'm thankful for so many great memories.

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  4. I'm so sorry. Loss is hard and I'm pretty sure we aren't supposed to "get over it" -- especially if our loved one meant a great deal to us. The cliche is true - he'll live on in your heart and you'll always have the reminders. In time, they'll make you smile more than cry. I hit that depressed place after my dad passed away. I started running about 6 months after he died -- it was a gradual process but the running definitely helped me mentally, as well as physically. Take care!

    Oh - and I definitely want to see that movie! I was just a casual fan of the Boston Marathon until the bombing. Now I'm determined to get there to see it one year -- only way I could qualify is to buy a charity bib -- but to see it, wow! On my bucket list!

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  5. Oh, Katie! I know I've said it a few times, but I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is hard, but it will get easier. Going back to work and going running will help. :-)

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  6. I'm glad you are surrounded by such an incredible support system!
    I bet getting out to a movie was a nice break from life even if just for a few hours.
    I love that beautiful idea of putting an item of memory into the casket, I have never heard of that before I really like that idea!
    It will get easier my friend, and the memories of him will just stay sweet and cherished, I'll keep sending prayers your way!

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  7. من المعروف ان نظافة المنازل من بين اهم الخدمات الضرورية في التنظيف والترقية بمنازلنا الى مصاف المنازل العصرية والتي عرفت تنظيفا عصريا من شانه ان يوفر لساكنته ظروفا حياتية راقية ولابد من توفر هيئة تختص في المجال مع تقديم ضمانات متكاملة من شانه ان تجعل الافراد يضمنون نجاح خدمة التنظيف ولا حاجة للمزيد من ضياع الاموال عبر طلبات خدمة نظافة المنازل التي لا تلبي حاجياتهم ولا تتماشى مع رغباتهم لأن العديد من شركات تنظيف المنازل تسعى فقط الى عرض خدماتها عبر طرق ترويجية فحسب من اجل كسب المال فقط دون مراعاة الوازع الاخلاقي والضمير المهني الذي يحتم على مدراء مثل هاته الشركات ان يسعوا خلف ارضاء العملاء ليس اكثر من هذا عبر اتقان تنظيف المنازل. شركة تنظيف خزانات بالقصيم
    شركة عزل خزانات بالقصيم
    شركة مكافحة حشرات بالقصيم
    شركة تنظيف بالقصيم
    شركة تنظيف منازل بالقصيم
    شركة رش مبيد بالقصيم

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