Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Hurry up, Friday!

Why am I rushing Friday? Well...I've gone back and forth the past month on whether I should talk about this here, but have decided to go for it.

On Friday I will be having liposuction! It 's something I've been wanting to do for awhile, but wasn't making enough money with my home daycare to save anything.  But since starting my new job, I've been able to.

I am so excited. I've felt like I work so hard, I eat healthy most of the time, I'm in the gym 4-5 days a week- but my stomach refuses to go away, and my hips refuse to get any smaller!

So I'm having lipo on my stomach, flanks (back fat), inner and outer thighs, and hips. I've done lots of research on this, I wanted to be very well informed and make sure this is what I wanted to do. And it is!

As for my recovery, I'll have the surgery on Friday and then go back to work next Tuesday. Since I sit down all day, my Dr says I should be fine. (He's the same amazing Dr I went to 12 years ago)
 I can start walking as soon as I feel like it, probably after a few days. But I shouldn't start running again for a couple weeks.

The only thing I'm worried about... my next half marathon is in 5.5 weeks! The R'n'R DC half marathon. I will not be able to train for it much at all. I try to always stay half marathon ready physically, but after a surgery like this, and not being able to do any long runs, I'm not sure how it will go. If I have to do a lot of walking during it, I will. I know it will be an amazing experienceeither way.
 And then March 1 I'll start training like a crazy person for my R2R2R hike in the Grand Canyon! So, here's to a super fast and easy recovery!


If you guys have any questions, feel free to ask!

Saturday, January 21, 2017

A movie and trying to move on

I know a lot of people had unseasonably warm weather this weekend, including us. It was awesome. Now if it would just stay this way the rest of the winter, I would be happy.

Jeremy and I went to see Patriots Day. It was so good. It was suspenseful and dramatic. It definitely pulled on the heartstrings. Go see it!!

He seemed to think it was naptime...

After watching the movie I went for my first run of the week. Yes, of the week.
It was more of a walk/run. I really just needed to get active out in the fresh air.


I'm having a really hard time dealing with my Father in law's death. It hit me much harder than I thought it would.
We had his funeral last week, and it went really well. Over 300 people came, not counting the visitation. He was a very loved and respected man.

The family was able to put letters or any other items in the casket with him. It was another heart wrenching moment. My 11 year old nephew read a letter he wrote to his Pepaw out loud to us before he put it in. I just can't describe the pain in my heart seeing and hearing that.

 I put in a medal I received after my hardest marathon. I felt like I fought for every mile, and getting that medal at the finish line was an incredible reward. It reminded me of what a fighter he was, and always has been. And now he has his reward too, in heaven.

You can see Muhammed Ali's grave from my Father in law's. 2 fighters.


Everyone has been amazing during this time. We've had meals brought to us, food given, cards, messages, etc.
I'm trying to stay strong, and not get to a depressed place. That sounds weird to even say, but it's true. Today I will start running again, which I know will be a huge help. This will be my first full week back at work, which will be great, because my coworkers are the best in the world. I have the most amazing counselor, whom I plan on seeing again soon. My husband is beyond incredible and is such a strength to me, as I try to be for him.
 More than anything, God will get me through this. The joy of the Lord is my strength!

 And because I don't want to end negatively, I'll share a picture of when I recently got to take out my favorite 5 year old. She's the girl I nannied since she was 6 weeks old. She makes me feel how I imagine it must feel to be a mom. I adore her to pieces.




Monday, January 16, 2017

Saying goodbye to my sweet Father in law

I mentioned how we didn't have a good Christmas. Here's why:

A few days before Christmas my Father in law was diagnosed with Acute Myeloid Leukemia. He was 71 years old.
He was the epitome of health. He was the healthiest person I know. He was in the gym 4-5 days a week, very active, always ate healthy, etc. The dr's said he had the body of a 40 year old.

Last Spring he noticed he was getting out of breath a lot, for no reason at all. He attributed that to his age.

Right before Christmas he had blood work done and that's when they discovered the AML. It most likely had started in the Spring. They told him if he hadn't come in when he did, he would only have lived a few more weeks. Absolutely shocking to all of us.

They immediately admitted him and started a week of 24/7 chemo. After those 7 days they said the chemo had not worked, and in further testing discovered his form of cancer was extremely rare and resistant to treatment.
 They were going to try some clinical trials and see if they could at least stop the growth of the leukemia, so maybe he could have 6 more months with us, instead of weeks.

But Wednesday morning he became unresponsive and went into a coma. Tests showed he had massive bleeding on his brain. He wouldn't wake up again.

They removed him from the ventilator Wednesday night, and said he would be gone quickly. Well, Steve is very stubborn, and he always does things his way! He didn't pass away until Friday morning. His heart was so healthy, it just kept on beating.

He was in palliative care the last couple days, and as hard as it was for us, we cherished every moment.

His family was surrounding him every moment. There wasn't a second that someone wasn't talking to him, touching him in some way. Jeremy and his 2 sisters all sing, so there was constant singing going on. Those last couple days were so special. So unreal. How could this super healthy man be in this position, when just a few weeks ago he seemed to be in perfect health?
 He told everyone he was going to live to be 120, and no one doubted him for a second.

Can you believe he was 70 here??
He was such a wonderful father in law. He truly treated me like a daughter. He would buy me things for no reason other than he thought I would like it. We would go on dates. We went to see Michael Buble, the Sister Act musical, etc. He would buy me outlandish clothes because he thought they would look good on me! He loved exercise as much as I do, so he would always tell me about his workouts, and wanted to hear about my running.

He loved extravagantly, and was loved extravagantly. He was a charmer, and everyone who met him just fell in love with him. Even the short time he was in the hospital, his nurses adored him and all came to see him when he was in palliative, just heartbroken.

Above all these things, he loved Jesus more than anything. I know he is so happy right now in His presence. He loved attention and loved to sing (a gift he passed on to his children), I can just imagine God having him sing in front of a huge audience in heaven.

I will always cherish every phone call, every text, every conversation, every moment we had together in the 12 years I knew him.

I've never gone through loss like this before, so it's all a new experience for me. As well as for Jeremy and my boys. He was a wonderful pepaw to his 6 grandchildren. He spoiled them to the fullest. In October he took my Matthew to Chicago for a few days to celebrate his high school graduation. He adored my boys. I can't put into words how hard it is to watch them just weep over him. It tears my heart apart.

The next few days will seem impossible to get through for all of us. Heck, the next few weeks and years will feel that way. But we have the hope we will see him again.

If I could've picked out who I wanted as a Father in law, I would've chosen Steve over a million times.


My wedding day with my new mother and father in law.





Monday, January 9, 2017

2016, a great year of running

Well, I am a couple weeks late in posting my 2016 review, but I have a good excuse.
My domain expired the end of December, and I didn't renew it in time.
Long story, including where I totally freaked out, thinking everything I've written the past 5 years was gone.
 I posted about it on facebook, and found out that one of my friend's husband works with computers, and he offered to help me get it back. (It wasn't as simple as just renewing it) It worked, and everything is back in it's right place. Lesson learned, don't let your domain name expire!!

2016 included 9 half marathons, 1 marathon and 835 miles run.

This medal hanger was a Christmas gift from my boss, that he made! (He was my secret santa)
I was able to run five 100 miles months. At the beginning of the year, I didn't even think that was possible. I never realized before how true that saying is; everything is impossible until you try it.

I had an injury free year!! I am so thankful for that. I plan on 2017 being the same way.

My only marathon was in May. It was so bad that I decided I'm done with marathons. Although at the time I wanted to do another one!
Of course now I'm thinking maybe I should get redemption for that. So, we'll see what this year brings...

2016 was quite a year personally too. From finding out about my niece's brain tumor, and then spending 6 weeks in Chicago with her as she underwent radiation and chemo, and then the awesome news that she is cancer free!! Then spending 2 1/2 weeks in Honduras, coming home and starting a new job that I love. It was a crazy year!

Unfortunately it did get worse, which I'll talk about later. We did not have a good Christmas, but NYE was fun. Some friends of ours from Indy came down for the weekend, so it was fun hanging out with them.

Here's to 2017! I don't have any specific goals. Well, I would like to reach 1000 miles this year, so there's that.
 I have lots of out of town races planned, and I know I've already mentioned my R2R2R (rim to rim to rim) hike of the Grand Canyon in June.
Lots of good things coming up!